No one ever really reads this blog, and that is ok I am going to use it to vent.
Looking back at my last post, it was January and I was having a "ruff day" off it. The year really ended up being a very exciting and good year. Over all, my energy level was better and I worked out for 3 months straight before I went to Nationals. Then fall/winter hit and I feel pretty much like I did that last post .... tired all the time, hardly can drive to work.
Work is crazy busy and I really have to suck it up and get in there to get things done. In a way, that is a lot better for me.
So, I am sitting here on the couch, late in this year and back into my bad season. Hips hurt so bad I could cry. I have had a productive morning so far, in which I posted on FB cheerfully how much I got done, when really I am just dying inside with excruciating pain.
Mentally this year, I have been struggling with the ups and downs of pain and energy. No one (unless they live with chronic pain) has any idea what it can do to you.  I feel hopeless and have no control.
I am trying to do the right things - taking vitamins, taking my meds on time, doing a little exercise.
But right now I am just tired of putting on the Happy Face. I would like to just be a Bi---tch... I wish my attitude and demeanor could represent how I feel. Of course no one in the right mind would want to be around me. So Happy Face it is.
I have agility that is keeping me busy and preoccupied, I have to go tomorrow and I am just praying I wake up feeling better than I did today.
For my once in a blue moon post - this is it..
Signing off.