No one ever really reads this blog, and that is ok I am going to use it to vent.
Looking back at my last post, it was January and I was having a "ruff day" off it. The year really ended up being a very exciting and good year. Over all, my energy level was better and I worked out for 3 months straight before I went to Nationals. Then fall/winter hit and I feel pretty much like I did that last post .... tired all the time, hardly can drive to work.
Work is crazy busy and I really have to suck it up and get in there to get things done. In a way, that is a lot better for me.
So, I am sitting here on the couch, late in this year and back into my bad season. Hips hurt so bad I could cry. I have had a productive morning so far, in which I posted on FB cheerfully how much I got done, when really I am just dying inside with excruciating pain.
Mentally this year, I have been struggling with the ups and downs of pain and energy. No one (unless they live with chronic pain) has any idea what it can do to you.  I feel hopeless and have no control.
I am trying to do the right things - taking vitamins, taking my meds on time, doing a little exercise.
But right now I am just tired of putting on the Happy Face. I would like to just be a Bi---tch... I wish my attitude and demeanor could represent how I feel. Of course no one in the right mind would want to be around me. So Happy Face it is.
I have agility that is keeping me busy and preoccupied, I have to go tomorrow and I am just praying I wake up feeling better than I did today.
For my once in a blue moon post - this is it..
Signing off.

Ruff Day

Today has not been one the best of my days... I should have known when I almost fell asleep on my way TO work and it's only a 7 mile drive!

Been sleepy all day, not feeling too great - but have made my list of "To-Do's" for when I get home.

This is one of my new years resolutions... If I don't have a plan of any kind, I tend to just sit and do nuttin'...
So I am at the end of my day, thinking "How in the world am I going to have any energy to even drive home.
I am not going to be too hard on myself... just get a few things done and rest so maybe I will feel a little better tomorrow. 
My priority is to do some work outside with Hemi... really working this "NO BARKING Zone" -- Trying to keep her from Sassing me so much when we play in the backyard. 
That long with trying to get ready for class tomorrow night... 
I'm so exhausted.


Signing off for today....